She is here!

yes..
she comes once again after dissappeared for a year or so..
and her arrival had never been ignored..
i'm happy that i was able to meet her again..
and i already hoped for next-year meeting..
hope she don't mind seeing me again..
(but that's another story though)

She is Ramadhan..
the most beautiful month in Islamic calendar..
during this period,
the Muslims basically cannot eat and cannot drink..
but sure! there's a lot more 'cannot'

ramadhan mean "resist yrself"
"resist yrself from bad doings"
-->any bad doings

why do i liked Ramadhan?
why do i liked Ramadhan?
ermm..why do i liked Ramadhan?
why..do...i...liked...Ramadhan..?
i dunno i just like it~

p/s-this year's raya would be in Kelantan..
coz my younger sister will sit for SPM this year..
so,better to stay at hometown..
next year will definitely be Perlis's turn..

tomorow is PUASA
i'd got my bread ready for sahur...weee~

[semoga Ramadhan kali ini akn memberikn ketenangan kepada ku..semoga aku mampu menahan diri dari segala laranganMu..dan mendekatiMu sedekat-dekatnya..Berikan petunjuk kepadaku Ya Allah]
*amin*

Happy Decision-Made Day !!

Wah,tajuk post yg pelik..
This day is for the very day I decided to come to maktab..

It’s almost 1 year now since the day I made this decision...
It’s almost 1 year now I left my last institution..
It’s almost 1 year now since I start to learn to like maktab..

Well,it’s not that hard to like maktab..
But honestly, this is not what I wanted since the beginning..
The beginning means, since I was 7 years old..

What I want?i don’t know it myself..uhuu

I still remember the very day I made the decision..
It’s the day when tears was not expensive at all..

That’s the first time I cried whenever I heard phone ringing..
That’s the first time I cried when my father called..
That’s the first time when my father called 5 times a day..
That’s the first time my brother told me his regret..
That’s the first time when I cannot hold my tears..
That’s the first time I really can’t avoid talking with many pauses..
That’s the first time I cried in front of my family..
That’s the first time I can’t speak..
That’s the first time I cried in front of my friends
That’s the first time my friend said don’t regret..
That’s the first time my new friends told me not to go..
That’s the first time I can’t’ speak..

Receiving this news was such an unpredictable moment..
I never thought I’ll get this offer again..

I remember the day I received message
“sorry,900829-09-**** is not offered for kplspm 2009 intake,
plz mke a rayuan”
--that’s the day I was in the car with my father on Friday,
on da way home from Pasar Minggu Besut..
And I was happy,but at the same time had the feeling,alahaii~

I also remember the day I received message
“congratz!,900829-09-**** offered for kplspm 2009 intake,
plz reply to accept or not”
--that’s the day I was in lecture of Mr.Gan in UKM kampus KL on Thursday..and I was like,”huh?..ade lagi benda niey”..and I laughed all way back to hostel,taking this very lightly..
Telling my mom and dad (which were on their way to Perlis, my hometown) about this, had brought everything in awkwardness. Shock was not the exact word to describe my feeling when my dad said,”kak,pergi deh”..

Since then,my eyes never stop tearing..
I said “no,I don’t want”,but I said it only once..
I never said this again until now..

Many people called me,asking about this..telling me stories..
Giving me advices..telling theories..
I accepted them..*thinking*..

What should I do?
Should I go or should I stay?
My father didn’t push me to go but that was his wish,
would I be happy if I let him down?

How about my friends?old and new friends?
How about the effort I had made in matriculation?
let it burned in my memory?
How about one whole year I spent
reading books for breath-taking exams?
(honestly,getting such a result was NOT easy,NOT at all,and this isn’t a joke!)
How about my dream?my dream of having my own business?
How if I can’t live in maktab?
How if I can’t find friends in maktab?
How if I hate living in maktab?

I’m afraid..

But,
I did go..
(No surprise,I’m here now,on my bed,writing on lappy..)

What made me made this decision?easy..
Just because I don’t want my parents to cry for me again..
Even though it’s for my sacrifise..

This is all because of my parents..

I won’t let them down..
I won’t let them know I hate to be here..
I won’t let them know how I wish I was not here..
I won’t let them know how suffer I was being here..
I won’t let them know how I can’t find a true friend here..
I won’t let them know I hate being here..

And I won’t let them down..

Because I know this will totally hurt them..
Because I know they tried so hard to make me love this place..

Friends here,no joke,they’re not at all understand me…

This place told me that never trust a friend..
This place told me that it’s good to have enemies..(stupid enemy)
This place told me that never rely on friends..
This place told me that classmates are classmates,
they are not friends until we declared it..
This place told me that good friends can become enemies..
This place told me that the people here still need spoon-fed..
This place told me that these people are still in school-minded-mind..
This place told me that people won’t bother about us
until i made anything wrong..
This place told me that these people need to be taught
how to respect people..
This place told me that there are people who can’t think further farther..
This place told me that there are people who are easily influenced
esp bad influences..
This place told me that there are people who didn’t realized
that they are culture-shocked..
This place told me that finding love here blinded most eyes..
This place told me that pretending is always the best option..
This place told me all these..

I like this place..
I’m grateful that I made this decision..
I’m grateful that I chose to come here..
I’m grateful that I chose to be a teacher..
But nothing in this place had made me feel
that my decision was correct..
Nothing in this place had made me feel that I deserved to be here..
Nothing in this place had made me happy about it..
Nothing..!

Now I’m here,for next 4 years..
My father told me this

"this is just for 5 ½ years,4 years to go..bear it a bit longer,and u will never see anyone in maktab again after that..even yr classmate is just in memory until u reunite someday.."

I BELIEVE HIM~

**********************************************************

Since small,I have no true ambition..
Coz I nvr knew any job other than teacher,doctor and engineer..
And giving always humble and not-powering statements,
I’ll always answer “my ambition is to be a teacher”
I bet this is a taboo to me, becoming the reason I’m here now.
Once,I love to be a journalist..ahaks~..
bcoz I saw many journalist travel around the world..That’s my dream..
but,

I never ever said I want to be a doctor..
I never ever said I want to be an engineer..
I never ever answer other than to be a teacher..

*now,it's coming back to me*

words from non-DBSK fan~

This is what a non-Cassie wrote to me after watching Bolero live. I was honestly touched to know that there are people out there who understand the way we Cassiopeia feel.

Here is what she wrote on her note:

It's undeniable...
When it comes to TVXQ, it's never just about their looks
Perhaps one could say that compared to their love for music, the way they express themselves and their passion, their appearance is completely insignificant.
When I'm listening to them and watching them, I don't feel the same kind of wildness and superficiality induced by other idols. This is admiration, genuine admiration.
They strive for perfection and sing with their sincerity. Listening to them is not only a form of pleasure, it has also shown me their respect; respect for music and for their audience.

Connection, trust and love; all of these things interdependent.

Whilst they may not be old, they have a level of maturity unheard of in other artists their age. Their determination has helped them overcome countless obstacles and reached unattainable heights.
I don't know how to express this, but watching the five of them on stage, their devotion, their concentration and their understanding of music… it's incredibly moving.
Compared to the mainland (China), where those who truly love music and value life never reach the top and those who are dependent on their looks, rumours and lies do.
As Asia's best group, TVXQ have shown nothing but progress and development. As I was watching their performance, the only thought in my head was 'TVXQ forever'.
They impact they had on me… I don't ever want to lose that feeling.

Credits: 允摯愛@TVXQBaidu
Trans by: dorfehh@DBSKnights
Shared by: DBSKnights + farahinsabri

[VOTE] •Sungkyunkwan Scandal•

Which drama you wanna watch in this summer ?

Period: July 26, 2010 - August 16, 2010

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~adaMaya~

aku bru je abes tgk adaMaya..
ok,tahu la aku dah terlambat bbrapa bulan,
but at least ak tgk kn3??..haha

ok,my opinion,
i think adaMaya was not that superb like what people were saying..
overall,the drama was good,
the sound effect was good,
the actors were good,
it pretty much good,however~
(i'm not trying to bash anyone) but,
the storyline was typical..
adam was nice,and he was too nice..
maya was blurr,and she was too blurr..
dani was stupid evil,and he was not really evilly stupid..
mika was supposed to be stupid,but he helped dani a lot with ideas
(i like him..LOL)
sarah was maya's friend,but lending too much time for mending with her problem..
jasmin was sometimes evil toward dani,but not much of evil yet..(haha)
and little sweety amani was brilliant!

BUT,the problems appeared were "too" simple,
sometimes,1 discussion were discussed twice..
the problem solving,quite boring..
how adam gave up nearly the end of the story,brought me down..
for me,adam shld not gave up..(but yeah,that how malay story works..)
the function of other actors to help were good but sometimes,don't u think that there're too much of help??
they're even serious than adam..LOL..
and maya,i would say,she's really confused!..ahha..
(dunno whether she made the confused face brilliantly or that's how her face looks..huk3)

anyway,not sure why people were so into this drama..
perhaps the feeling of watching 1 hour a day,monday to friday
was differ with
the feeling of watching many hours a day (and stop whenever i want to stop)

yet,i like the ways the script was adapted by the actors..
and i had had fun with the humours that mika did..LOL..

Top 10 Korean idols who look better without clothes

[TRANS] 100731 Top 10 Korean idols who look better without clothes

1. Leeteuk
2. Kim Hyun Joong
3. Taemin
4. Siwon
5. Jaejoong
6. Nickhun
7. TOP
8. Yunho
9. Jokwon
10. Dongho

Credits: TVXQBaidu
Trans by: dorfehh@DBSKnights
Shared by: DBSKnights

[TRANS] 100731 To all of Cassioepia: It's been a year...

Today is a day that no Cassiopeia would ever forget. It's been a year, and it's gone by in a blink of an eye, hasn't it?

We've waited an entire year, and in truth, it is undeniable that this period has really shown to us all how much we genuinely love our boys.

Throughout this time, we've had our doubts, our worries and even conflicts amongst ourselves, but all that is behind us now, we've made the decision to stay, and to keep waiting. Cassiopeia is a force to be reckoned with, seeing our enthusiasm, it's almost as though nothing ever happened. Every now and then, we may speak of our boys, about how much we miss them, but it's only because we want to see the five of them together again. We motivate one another, we encourage those around us to stay positive, and we vow to wait together; I'm proud of what we've achieved, of this entire fandom.

Many of us have shed tears, and yet we continue down this path because we believe. The boys have our unconditional and wholehearted faith and patience.

Some say they are charmed by our boys' looks, some by our boys' music, and some by our boys' love and emotion. Me? I'm a fan of these fans.

Others may not ever be able to comprehend this kind of unconditional love that we fans have to offer, yet we sacrifice it anyway, to a point where we could almost be deemed reckless and foolish. Even if we may never see those that we love, we love them anyway, regardless of other people's words, perception and lack of understanding.

It is magical, the way the emotions of others are able to affect our own.

Some say that to be a fan of an idol group is to inflict pain upon oneself. Groups inevitably separate, leaving fans with no choice but to focus their support on one particular member. On the other hand, we are Cassiopeia, and each and every one of us knows that we will continue to support DBSK as a whole regardless of the outcome of this difficult situation, wouldn't you agree?

And after writing all this nonsense, my one hope is that all of you will continue to wait, to support and to protect our boys.

Those of you that have twitter, please tweet #imissdbsk, thanks!

Credits: 秀秀小兔@TVXQBaidu
Trans by: dorfehh@DBSKnights
Shared by: DBSKnights

[TRANS] 100729 Tohoshinki Trio Speaks Openly About Their Complex Emotions And New Determination

In June, they held the concert “JUNSU/JEJUNG/YUCHUN THANKSGIVING LIVE IN DOME” at the two major Domes, and started breaking away from Tohoshinki. Junsu, Jejung and Yuchun have started their activities as a trio. At Tokyo Dome on 13 June, when they held their final concert, many reports spoke about how the trio cried while showing their love and thanks to the fans, showing their unwavering popularity.

Before embarking on the new stage, Junsu, Jejung and Yuchun went on their own journeys in search of themselves. Their honest words from their hard, and what they feel about the new stage, a real side of themselves are shown in the DVD “3hree Voices”, which was just released.

Junsu released his solo single “XIAH,” which did favorably, went to Australia for the first time. He thoroughly enjoyed the beautiful sea, admired the vast nature and was excited all the time, a total opposite from his normal calm self. “This is a time when I can look back on everything that happened since debut,” he said, talking about his current feelings.


After the recently ended drama “Sunao Ni Narenakute (Hard to say I love you)”(Fuji TV) and showing his acting skills in Japanese, Jejung headed to Canada. He enjoyed dog sledding, and drinking with the staff. Jejung, who has been working hard from Tohoshinki to the current solo activities, showed a fresh side as he went around.

And for Yuchun, he went back to his home country, Korea. He was born in Seoul, but grew up in America and went through a hard time. Returning to Korea alone to debut with Tohoshinki, and went through a turbulent route. He now revisits Korea “because this is the country I was born in,” he expresses. You can see his love and feelings for his home country, as well as determination for the new stage.

The three spent time in various places reflecting. Yuchun is shooting a drama in Korea, and other solo activities have started. As they show their honest appearance and words, we want to discover the passion they have been hiding in their heart.

(DVD Details Omitted)

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translation credits: ssunsett@tohosomnia.net
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